JIGSAW

Prides Bride

The pain in my heart, tears in my eyes, with every breath I take i make a stride
To unsubscribe from my past, let go of an ego dominated by pride.
Determined to rise above the lies, and deceit whispered to me, to assure my defeat
Reminiscing on the nights i weep ed shamefully in defeat cause I just creep ed
Knowing in my heart this was not what God has for me.
Doubting my existence, in resistance I struggle I'm suppose to be a princess, a witness not dissing my existence.
Walking up rightly pumping fists
Cause this is His wishes
Not a life imprisoned
By pity, guilt, and sins end
Lifting my head from the ground God is up so I cant be down
Frown to a smile. Took off the garment of weeping, I'm working on my crown
This path is no longer wide
Empowered by truth Jesus is my life
He whose ears are open listen for your souls sake
Grasp hold and experience amazing grace
No longer will I fear my existence
I know whose I am
Pride has been humbled
I know who I am.

Who I am is who God made me!
I am not perfect so please be patient with me.
Who I am is who God made me!
I make mistakes so please don't judge me.

I am my past
yet God has given me a gift
I am my present
my wounds heal daily
As I continue to praise thee.
weary from praying
but its the only way I'm staying
many days I fast
to stay clear of my past
I run for the word, I run
this race daily with patience
I blatantly speak
of the peace I seek
as I flee the reincarnation of sin
for a hope of salvation set in the end
a battle foretold
I win
because of my next of kin and friend
whose name is Jes-US
The one who died for us
Shed his blood for us
In God we trust
Resisted sin for us
Yes Jes-Us
For the cause of the cross i cant forsake the memory
And I will never for get what Jes-US has done for me
Rather is doing for me
Even right now as my heart sings this rhyme
my lips rejoice
soon will be the time
of the coming of the Son who died for man
whose plan was to save man from man.
And
Will you be ready?
or
Will you be left behind?

What a woman Loves

Flowers Flowers Flowers and more Flowers! Its nothing like spending the day with your significant other and at the close of that day blow their mind and melt their heart with a dozen roses! This is not only romantic but it says to the recipient I am thinking of you even though You're next me. It's the little things that count and small gestures keep the heart fond. Enjoy every moment with her! See ya next time!

She is!!!!

Facing myself has been one of the toughest truths. Besides hiding from my own shadow and mirror image I valued the opinions of others and many times allowed them to influence my life. Yeah MY LIFE. I am now 30 years old and I just come to the realization I am bi-sexual. It took me 30 years. I knew it when it was 16 but I didnt want to admit who I was then. I know in Gods eyes this is not pleasing but how else am I going to deal with me unless I face the facts. I like women a lot. Especiallly her. She is amazing and talented and funny. She is sweet but not a push over. Thats what makes me smile. Well there ya go. Now you know. Im out of the CLOSET!

Really? You aint all that

Okay! So dont you just hate when some one plays the knight role with you as IF you really needed saving when they met you. Yes youve helped me took care of certain affairs, been there when I needed you but haven't I been there for you as well. Uh, Hello didnt I have a house car and a job when we met? Well I will have a house car and a job when you decide you feet cant stand still any longer. There is the door! Dont let it hit you where the good Lord split you!

This Weekends trip and Positive breakthroughs

This weekend was fabtabulous! I had the opportunity to see my family and interact with them. What was more awesome than anything was being able to talk to my mom! smiles. She and I set up until 3 am just talking about the past good and bad. Meanwhile Im up and down fixing her coffee and actually enjoying every moment. I left home smiling because I have not talked to my mom in that way in years! Not that I didnt want too, a mental incapability was limiting her. She is sooo smart. It is a wonderful thing to fall in love again. I fell in love with my mother all over again. She made me smile a thousand times. I didnt want to leave my mom. Parting was bitter sweet but I was sure of our next meeting. Im soooo happy for this, God is a mirale worker. He did it for me and for my mom. I love you mommy always. Sn: Cherish every moment you have because you can not define the moment of your loss. RIP Altamese Edwards November 19, 2010.